One Day

One day I stopped loving you and if you told me now you loved me I don't think I could love you again because the day I stopped loving you made me feel free and I could not again be adicted to you, I would never want that. But you know what I would hate you for being to late with loving me. You know who I would hate the most?  Myself because you were the one I only wanted and then I get the chance to have you and I am to scared to accept my feelings. Sometimes I miss the feeling of the butterflies when I saw you but than I realize that I am not addicted to you anymore and don't need you to be around to be happy.When I loved you I used to fall in a hole of sadness when you where not around. That was the worst of it all because you could not do anything about it. Looking back on it today I had phases where I was really happy and ones where I was really sad and it was difficult for the people around me, my friends to handle it.

Online

I thought you could never fall for someone you don't really know but you can. And you know what hurts the most?? You will never know who he really is you will always rely on what he writes and tells you. You will trust him more and more and he could one day hurt you so much that you think your life is over and you can not live with that huge pain. He will never know how much he means to you. You are so addicted waiting for him to answer. And the only reason you did all this was because you felt alone in your real life because it hurts but getting hurt by someone you trust so much ist even worse. Everyone keeps telling you there are only pedophiles on the Internet but they never tell you that you will meet a person you fall in love with and it kills you from the inside. This pain will stop one day because the person was never real but it takes time to be so disciplined to not talk to him any more. Around your real friends you never stop talking about him and everytime the question apears: do you like him?  The argument against it is always: why would I, I don't even know him. On the inside you will always know how badly you are in love with him.